The Charming Predator by Lee Mackenzie

Author:Lee Mackenzie
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Doubleday Canada
Published: 2017-04-18T04:00:00+00:00

This is going to be a long and rambling note. It is not going to be easy to write. Please do not stop until you have read it all through.

My life has not been the same since you came into it. I did not think it possible that I could find the kind of love I share with you.

Let me go back a bit. For over 12 years my life was dedicated to politics. I was uniquely successful. I walked the corridors of power and was tempted many times to stray over the ill-defined line which separates bending the rules and breaking the law. I never did stray over. After all these years I had to make a fundamental choice. I could go ahead, probably enter Parliament or work as a senior official at the EEC, the UN or some such body, or I could quit the political scene.

I could not stay as I was. Pressures were being put on me by senior and influential people—Giscard d’Estaing, Soares, Genscher, etc.—to move out of the back stage and move into the public limelight. My fellow agents were jealous of my contacts. I had to go up or drop out. I decided to drop out.

Why? you ask. Well, the cost of fame is all too often paid with one’s self-esteem, one’s independence, even one’s soul. I have seen too many good men turn when the public’s glare shone on them. Fame and high regard among one’s peers is one thing, but public adoration is another. I thank God that I had the courage to say no to the adulation of ‘power’. I wanted to be who I was—not what the backroom boys made of me. I had spoiled too many good men by moulding them into a saleable package to want it done to me.

I was wealthy then—politics can be a lucrative business. I lavished money on friends—most of whom never repaid their loans—and a mother who was given everything she asked for. In 1976 I had over 100,000 pounds in my bank. By 1979 I was left with under 1,000 pounds. Oh, I had creditors totalling over 40,000 pounds but I never saw more than a couple of thousands of it. My conscience is a lot clearer than that of a number of my relatives and so-called friends of that time.

Then I met you. I knew the moment I saw you that we were to be wed. No one deserves you, me less than many. Your eyes glow with kindness. You overflow with care, love, simplicity. It shows in your smile how good, truly good, a person you are.

Never, never, never will I leave you in soul, even if we may be parted in body. When we are both at God’s right hand, I will leave you only to thank our Father for showing you to me.

You were not yet touched with the feelings which were in my heart, and I was afraid to tell you of them. If I had lost you, then I could not have faced the future.

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